Hello, y’all and welcome back to another book review. I recently devoured another book by the one and only Adam Silvera. For those of you that don’t know, he’s one of the newest Young Adult contemporary writers. Okay,well, he may not be that new anymore. But, he was one of the newest authors that I’ve read, but I have been meaning to pick up his books for forever, but then I heard that they make you feel things, and I was just like, I don’t want my soul to be crushed. But, then i finally caved, because I started following him on social media, and I just thought he was so adorable, and cool. But, I’ve given both of his books that I’ve read 5 stars, because the words that he writes are just so beautiful, honest and raw, and just everything you would want it to be. I rated it 5 out of 5 stars.
For those of you who have been living in a rock, and haven’t heard of More Happy Than Not, or Adam Silvera. I’m gonna need you to get together, and question what you have been doing with your life.
Here’s the synopsis for More Happy Than Not from Goodreads:
In the months after his father’s suicide, it’s been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again–but he’s still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he’s slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.
When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron’s crew notices, and they’re not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can’t deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can’t stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute’s revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Why does happiness have to be so hard?
This is the part where if you haven’t read the book, you just need to LEAVE now, because I am jumping into the SPOILER section of this review, and I just want to make sure if you haven’t read it, that it’s not spoiled for you. So, for those of you that have read it, then let’s just jump into the discussion:
So, I just want to say that this one of those books, that you can’t judge,just by looking at the title, or by reading the back of it. I just remember reading, and not really getting into it at first, or really relating to any of the characters.
But, the more that I stuck it out, the more that I got to know Aaron, and the more that I felt like I did relate to him. Because, he has a lot of things going on, and he struggles with just being happy, and accepting himself, which is something we all struggle with.
Aaron has a habit of falling in love with all the wrong the people, and he can’t move past his dad’s suicide, and we don’t know a lot of what happened that led up to that, but Aaron struggles with the main question that we do, if you know anyone that has been suicidal, then you know the question, which is simply, Why? Why was this person so unhappy that ending their life would be the only solution.
I just thought it was very irresponsible for Aaron’s dad to this, because kids follow their parent’s example, so Aaron, tries to commit suicide as well, because he saw that his dad did it, so he thought he should do it, and that’s his solution to ending his pain, instead of trying to move past it.
Aaron ends up having a scar of a smiling face of his arm, which is a oxymoron of sorts, and a reminder of him trying so hard to be happy. But, he feels like he couldn’t even do that. So, since this is set in a semi-future world, they have this procedure called the Leteo Procedure, and it can basically alter your memories, and suppress them, like if you experience something tragic, like being a drunk driver and as a result of that, someone died, and you can’t live with the guilt. They will have you suppress the memory, but it’s still very experimental, and very controversial.
If you have the procedure, you must meet with a team of doctors, and have several therapy sessions, and they determine if the memory that you have is something that needs to be repressed or something that you can’t get over with time. But, it doesn’t make the memory completely go again, so the people around you have to be careful not to bring it up anything that can cause the memory to be unwound, and for the patient to relieve it all over again, so most of the patients end up relocating.
Many of the characters have their own opinions of the procedures, for those that caused the death of someone, they think, that person shouldn’t get a free pass, and be guilt free, others think, that it’s dishonoring the person that they are trying to forget.
I think that each memory is important, the good and bad, and they all shape you into your supposed to be, and you can’t appreciate the good memories without the bad, and this ultimately the theme in the book, but the execution was done in such a unique way, that makes you just want to lay in the floor, and cry about it. Because, i couldn’t honestly if I had the opportunity to erase bad memories, I wouldn’t wrestle with that decision.
I honestly don’t know what I would do if I was Aaron, because Aaron realized this too late, once he realized the procedure is altering his mind, to where he will eventually forget everything, which is what he wanted. But, it will overtime, erase the good memories, so he will never. So, by the end of the novel, he’s working with Leteo to try to reverse the procedure, and prevent the amnesia from happening.
I Just think that everything was so great about the novel, each character, had their own personality. But, they all were connected to each other, even with their different viewpoints and opinions. I think this book is a great representation of how life works in mysterious ways, and how it can be extremely hard to accept who you are, especially if you have someone in your life, tell you that your worthless, or not worth anything, but at some point, you get past it, and that no procedure, will help you do that, or help you forget who you are. You’ll always find a way back to who you are, and you just need to learn to accept yourself, and love yourself.
I just love the way that the topics were laid out, and that even when Adam addressed suicide and cutting, he did it in a delicate and realistic way, that most people who struggle with it, struggle with it, their entire life, and that suicide and cutting, doesn’t relieve the pain. But, that, communication helps, and telling someone you’re not okay, is what saves you. Because, It’s more than okay, to not be okay. Because like Thomas says, eventually, it’ll all be okay.
So, that’s my review for More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera. I rated it 5 out of 5 stars. Let me know if you have read this or any of his other books, and what you thought of them. Also, let me know if this procedure exist, is there a memory that you would want to suppress?